294!!!!!!!!
That's what the scale said this morning! 294!
Now, to some of you, that would be a nightmare, but to me, it is a HUGE victory.
294 means 20 pounds.GONE!
I just bought a 5 bag of sugar when I went shopping. 20 pounds means there are FOUR of those bags of sugar that I am no longer carrying around all day everyday. FOUR! No wonder I was tired and lazy and didn't feel like doing anything. No wonder I was unhappy.
But, no more! I feel so much better already. I have a loooong way to go and a hard road ahead to get there, but I am on my way.
And to get there, there are going to be some things that I can never do again...
I can never eat anything I want and however much I want ever again.
I can never not purposely exercise my body ever again.
I can never eat a whole pint of ice cream or king sized candy bar because I'm feeling sad ever again.
I can never turn to food to fill my emotional needs ever again.
I can never not be conscious of what I put in my mouth ever again.
BUT
Along with the things I can never do, comes a list of things I never HAVE to do again. And this list makes the other list totally worth it.
I will never have to see the number 3 at the beginning of my weight ever again.
I will never have to shop in a special store for clothes because nowhere else carries my size ever again.
I will never have to fear movie theater or arena seats or restaurant booths ever again.
I will never have to avoid having pictures taken of me because the image I see doesn't match how I think I look ever again.
I will never have to miss out on the opportunity to do something I want to do because of my weight ever again
I will never have to feel like I am missing out on what God's called me to do because of my weight ever again.
